To self, or to the past.

Yes I have changed. And I believe for the better.

I have seen some shit, been taken advantage of, been used and manipulated and lied to. Taken for a mug. I’ve loved and lost and loved and hated. The last six months of my life have been both the best and the worst. If I could go back in time I would go back to the start of this year and do it all differently. if only it were possible to unmeet someone.

But it isn’t. And I have to live with the decisions I’ve made, and therefore the things that happened to me because of those decisions. but then again so do you. You have to live with yourself. and I wouldn’t be in your shoes for all the money in the world.

But, I will not let what has happened destroy me. Never. You wont have that satisfaction. I will not be hardened, I will continue to love and have joy and happiness, all because I deserve to. I will remain soft as I have always been, but fierce.

So I have changed, because I have chosen to. I will no longer be lied to or walked over, taken for an idiot, twisted around anyone’s finger. I have evolved, i am unshakeable, yet deeply empathic, loving and full of fire.

Nobody will take that away from me.

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